For Every Mountain...

Hi Becomers!

I'm sure you have heard the journey of life being compared to the strength and effort it takes in climbing a mountain. Everyone is determined to reach the peak! The highest point, the climax if you will.
In some form or fashion we are all seeking our point in life where we feel at peace within ourselves and the flow of life we are living in is just where we need to be. At least that's the peak I imagine. It's the place where all the things I struggled with, from, and through make some kind of sense.
Of course things won't be perfect but I imagine within myself I will have found a place where I am content......

Once I participated in a meditation with Deepak and Oprah! I love them. But anyway, I participated in one of their 21 day meditations. I believe the topic of  the meditation was focused on releasing fears.

During the meditation we had to envision a huge mountain where we could see the peak.
The peak was beautiful, sun lit, and capped with melting snow. We then had to see ourselves standing at the very bottom of that gorgeous mountain filled with streams from the melted snow and flowers surrounding it. We the envisioned for ourselves a path that we would have to walk in order to get to the peak. Well here is where it gets difficult because if you are anything similar in thinking to myself you envisioned a clear path. My path was a curvy but slim dirt path made for walking and admiring the beauty of the plants and streams on the mountain.
Deepak wrecks my perfect stroll when he says, now you see some weeds on your path, tall, rough, and thick weeds.

Well who wants to imagine that on their path to the peak! The highest point! Their dream! Nobody wants weeds popping up onto their beautiful canvas?

Yet that's the reality of it all. Life won't be a smooth dirt path. It will not be calming soothing waters, and fragrant flowers. You'll pass some lovely sights along the way but you'll meet some weeds too.

Interestingly enough, the meditation then causes you to look at the weeds like there's no way to get around them. You can only go through it if you want to get to the peak. Question is now how do you do that? We didn't envision any weed hacker or giant scissors to slice and dice them away.
In this vision I began to panic and I could feel myself become anxious. My heart was racing and I had a moment like WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO GOD? (forgive me if my language offends anyone but I'm being honest). I'm in a moment where I can clearly see how to get from the beginning of this journey to the next and some weeds pop up! How rude of the world to rain on my parade! Yep like a spoiled child I was angry and like a fearful one I was worried that I couldn't make it past these weeds.

I know that someone can relate.

The mediation went on to have you examine your feelings, to ask yourself what is it that I fear in this moment.
I understood at that time that one of my fears was that I couldn't do this. I wasn't capable, I didn't have the necessary tools, I wasn't out spoken enough. I'm inadequate and I don't measure up.
TALK ABOUT FEAR AND SELF DOUBT!
So after I realized my fear the meditation informed me on how to get past these weeds. You pick them. One by one until each weed is gone. We aren't in a rush, you don't worry about time. Time doesn't exist. You pick them.

What a relief.

I won't drag you through the entire meditation experience but what I want you to know is that what I received from God in that profound spiritual moment is that I CAN DO IT! Simple words but they mean a lot when your issues are deep seated......HA! That's another blog all together!
But hey, I can climb this mountain of a life because when I take the limits off, when I break BIG problems down into SMALLER ones I can clearly see that I possess the skills and resources to make things happen.

On that journey with Deepak and Oprah I definitely had some anxiety. I met my fears and once I realized them I left them behind. They had no place with me anymore. Isn't that liberating?
 It was awesome!
A boulder was placed on that mountain  and again I had to figure out how to get around it.
The whole picture they were painting is the same thing we have to understand on our journey to greatness (which is attainable for all of us), and that is WE ARE CAPABLE.

Your dreams, your goals, THE PEAK, You can have that!

You can definitely make it happen. Don't expect it to be easy as 1-2-3. Always look at your resources. Don't worry about what you don't have. Do think on what you have and use it to the best of your abilities.

For instance. Money may be short but you have old clothes, books, what-nots around the house that can be sold at a yard sale.
Learn to make lemonade! If all you have is the water FIGURE OUT how to get the lemon and sugar!

Message of hope is simple: YOU POSSESS THE GIFTS, TALENTS, KNOW HOW, ABILITY, AND UMPH TO MAKE YOUR DREAMS HAPPEN!
Reaching the peak means pulling away weeds, walking around boulders, jumping over logs, or whatever. By  the end you may be sweating up a storm but you will reach the peak and it'll be the most exhilarating experience in your life. You worked for it so soak it all in! Who knows you just may become an expert at climbing mountains, It may be what you look for.....another mountain to conquer!

Good day Becomers!

Among Greatness......

Hello Becomers!
I want to share with you the day I had today.
Invited to a luncheon by one of our local radio personalities I sat among women of purpose. Women of greatness. It was just an honor to be invited! To sit among people whose hard work and dedication to the community I admire, was a blessing.
I couldn't help but think of all the things I don't have.......I'm sitting among ladies with their stories in their back pockets ready to be whipped out and read at any moment as I'm still trying to construct mine.
I looked around the room and couldn't help but dream of my future position as CEO, as OWNER, as DIRECTOR, as a COMMUNITY ACTIVIST.
You can't tell me those titles aren't attractive! I would wear them well!
It's not the title I'm after though. It's the flow, the position, the operations that I'll be in that makes my belly warm with love and purpose! I feel fire rush through me like a high that's off the charts. You can't put this into a box. It makes me alive like nothing else and tears flow when I think for a second it's getting away from me. I push things around, create avenues, streets, or dirt roads just to get to this thing I feel PURPOSED to do.

It's that serious for me. That's Purpose!

This luncheon and other things like it remind me why I push so hard. It showed me that you have to believe in yourself at all times. When negative thoughts, such as my "I don't have business cards yet, I feel so inadequate", you have to tell them they don't have anything to do with your gift, your purpose, your life mission, or who you are becoming because regardless of what certificate, degree, or credential you have YOU WILL ALWAYS POSSESS THE GIFT!
The good thing God began in you will be seen through to completion.
The gift that's in you is being matured through experience.
Your mindset is being developed into the Director, Leader, CEO mindset.
I know 2 years ago I couldn't run anything effectively.
In the last few years I've learned a great deal and I'm still learning. However I've observed enough to know what type attitude is needed to make the life you desire happen!

Don't give up Becomers! Don't think yourself lower than anyone else! Do believe in yourself and in your abilities! Do love yourself and respect yourself enough! Do go to luncheon, meetings, and share whatever your story is....someone will listen and they'll remember you. They watch you even when you don't think yourself important enough. Go forward! Put yourself in the number, learn from them, and build your empire!

WE GOT THIS!

Your storm is over....

I was sent this video by a friend and it touched me right where I needed it today. Sometimes you just need to know that no matter what you've experienced you can get your peace back and the dreams you've been chasing will come into being!
My message of hope:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d25vxS7fing&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Realizing a dream...

Growing up my grandmother always taught how important education was. It was then my desire to become a teacher.....by the time I was 17 I learned I was great in math I then wanted to become an accountant in an office helping figure out bills or something. I didn't know for sure but I pictured myself in a black suit with white shirt and people looking to me with high esteem. I graduated high school and went in to start college as an accountant.....lost interest, they funded me my scholarship, I spent it on clothes at the mall and some things for my new apartment. Two children later I got serious about church and God and began to dream about who I was and what I'd become in my life. True to Christian nature I was ready to take on the world, save people, and cast out some of the biggest demons out there. I was the secret weapon and I would be fearless! 4 children later, therapy for sexual abuse issues turned my focus inward. I needed help. That nugget of truth I'd received from my connection with God grounded me. I held fast to the essence of who I was and that was someone with purpose and a future. Someone with unique gifts and talents. One who could touch people at the heart and soul of their issues. I loved who I was to become.
I could see myself in some place great but I was unsure where that place was because I'd lost my desire to be within the four walls of the church. In my time of therapy and looking inward I saw the many people who were hurting and in need but they were not church goers, they were everyday ordinary people. They were people like me who had faith but maybe not by one set of standards. Moreso they were people who needed light. So as I look back over scriptures that had been spoken to me through spirit I saw that opening blind eyes meant bringing people out of their dark places. I knew that seeing the heart meant listening without judgment and with love. That is my truth.
I saw the state of people I felt the church somehow left behind and forgot. The people who need to see the character of Jesus whether or not they attended church regularly or got saved at the pulpit.
Over the years I went back to what my grandmother said and I started over with college. A bachelors in psychology soon to be obtained!!!!
My vision of helping others seems greater than I could ever imagine. It's clearer than it's ever been and I believe it took this long for me to see it because I had to endure certain things to mold me and get me to where I need to be. The foundation of what God spoke to me and what others saw in me still stands firm. This year marks that year that I venture out and make those dreams reality. I am a business owner. I become a director of a non profit organization and many more things I see in my future that have to be mapped out. My heart won't keep quiet until I'm doing those things I feel purposed to do.

It make take years sometimes before the vision puzzle starts to make sense but step out, make a move you may fail, you may discover this piece doesn't quite fit and that is okay. Surely as you study the puzzle, study yourself, you will learn what fits where. Your life will begin to make sense and your dream will be realized.

In the throws of life...

Today I'm a bit down. As in all my entries there's something involved with purpose; pursuing it, reaching it, and never giving up on it.
Purpose is such a major part of my genetic make up it seems.
I discovered the depths of my purpose around the age of twenty but I believe purpose has been lingering in my presence since I was a child. Life just had to have more meaning to it than what I could see with my eyes. I would rest on my grandmothers white yard swing perfectly situated under her pecan tree. I would rest there and enjoy nature, talk to God, and daydream so much so that I lived there more than I did my everyday life. Life in a daydream was filled with color, life, smiles, and wealth. Wealth as in a full life of happiness.
I have yet to experience this blissful life I've dreamed of but I've grasped moments of it that keep me alive. Spiritual experiences that keep me alive and keep me pursuing the things that make me happy.
Boy but life itself can seem so tortuous at times that you only want to escape your reality.
I've realized that through pain that I'm not living the life I'm designed to live. If I were living it I know that it wouldn't hurt so bad.
Passion, its strong, its powerful, it can lead you into depths of emotion that you didn't realize were even in you. Emotions that can lead you to places of despair without the one thing you crave and that's your purpose.
It could be money, relationships, personal struggles, doubt, anything that's in the way of you living your dreams. I want you purpose driven butterflies to stay focus and let love reign. I write from a broken place today but knowing who I am and what my desires are keeps me going. Knowing God and his goodness pushes me through. I have bad days where I can't see my way, where the light in the room seems dim. When I wonder have I not gotten all I need to get out of this life experience, have I not acquired all the tools needed to live this dream? Nevertheless, Knowing that I'm being developed and fine tuned helps me to be patient. My message to you is that the dream, the goal, the vision is for an appointed time and it will speak. The good work God has started in you he will see to completion. The breakthrough you seek is in an action you yourself must take. I do believe that. Structure your life in such a way your dream can live and your soul will be made whole because you'll be living on purpose and in purpose which will give you life beyond any you have known before. When your struggle is over look to God and say thank you. Be grateful for all you went through and came out of. May you touch many lives and transform many minds!

Starting over..

There was a show that used to air called Starting Over. Life coaches assisted various women through different stages of their lives that were difficult for them to get through alone. They were stuck. Stuck in an emotional past that hindered them from moving forward in their present lives.
These women were determined to get there lives together but had several obstacles to beat before being able to do so.
It's amazing how our minds can work for us and then work against us all in one.
You can be doing all you know to do with good intentions only to find out later that even your best wasn't good enough. However it wasn't good enough so to speak because it wasn't the truth of who you are.
You can be living life the best you know know how but if you are always carrying around your hurt, nurturing it, pacifying it, and holding onto it like it's a baby wrapped in a blanket, you are most likely living from that pain and seeing everything through the lenses of your trauma.
You are presenting a wounded and damaged person over and over again. You are feeling misunderstood but could it possibly be that you have been misrepresenting yourself for a very long time. Maybe they don't get you, or me, because we simply have shown them who we are in our pain, anxiety, stress, anger, fear, hurt, betrayal, mistrust, or any of the negative behaviors, thoughts, or feelings we took on as a result of life's difficult circumstances. They misunderstand you because they haven't seen the real you beyond your pain.
But we can start over.

Let me say that no one may understand us all of the time but if we carry around the label misunderstood then it could be due to the fact that we constantly project behaviors without clear understanding of what we are doing, or why. Search yourself as I am doing to see where your thinking is in error and work to heal. I know it doesn't feel good being the only one in your head understanding and people outside of your head don't have a clue.....
Could there possibly be an end to feeling the loneliness associated with being misunderstood? A cure, if you will.... An elixir?
I think possibly it could be and that would be learning to understand yourself and then you may understand how the world views you.
I certainly feel misunderstood, judged wrongly but I know with my determined self that I'll heal, I'll be accepted by those who deserve my love and who will not abuse it.
Message of hope: be patient with yourself. You can start over. You don't have to forget but reliving your pain everyday is not an option either. Work each day to see through new eyes.
There is hope and you aren't beyond repair!

Keeping it real!

I'm no saint.
How many people can say that and own their mess?
How many people will stand up, take off the mask and admit that while they give great words they aren't without sin, fault, mistakes, or wrongdoing?
How many will give the truth?
In my lifetime I've found many preachers of Do Right! Many preachers of Get Your House In Order! Many people who give advice on how anothers house should be ran or conducted and will give the law from the book that should be followed but ignore the sin in their own hearts.
My! My! My!
Our world today is filled with judgments, condemnation, and with things we would do if that was us but honestly it's probably been us or could be us. No one is exempt from  stupidity! It doesn't matter how smart you think you are or how close your walk with God. You are human and you have the potential to fail.
I dare someone to cast the stone.
I'm ranting because I'm there. I'm her. Broken but not destroyed. It's called grace.

See folks it's not that we need to mind our own business in as much as we need to love people through their mess.
Yes I'm always talking about love.
It's the one thing when applied to even the most terrible of situations that will heal and change a life.

Our judgment, or turning up of the nose, or cutting of the eyes....leave that on the dusty shelf it came off of. Truth is you knew there was no need of it when you grabbed it.
The other dusty object you never grab because you can barely see it is TRUTH IN LOVE. Pick it up, shine it, and get it ready for use.

There's a game called TIT FOR TAT. Believe it or not scientist have used this very game and studied how people react to loving versus anger driven responses. Given the name you should know that if you start out with a negative action the reaction will in defense be negative. If the person so chooses to react in love and forgive your anger driven response, your next reaction will be in love. Love begets love. If we give more of it then I do believe we will get more LOVE out of our world. Less ignorant judging of situations. More healing of broken, battered, bruised people.

Message of hope:
If you have committed any sin. First know that God forgives you and loves you. Also know that there are people who have walked where you are in your sin. Know that you are loved. Cared for, and understood. Learn from this. Go and sin no more.

Don't let the judgments of others cause you to lose your life. No matter your sin you still have a life to live and all the more because you can help someone else out of any negative situation they find themselves in. Simply because you have overcome.

Keep becoming butterflies! We got this.