Starting over..

There was a show that used to air called Starting Over. Life coaches assisted various women through different stages of their lives that were difficult for them to get through alone. They were stuck. Stuck in an emotional past that hindered them from moving forward in their present lives.
These women were determined to get there lives together but had several obstacles to beat before being able to do so.
It's amazing how our minds can work for us and then work against us all in one.
You can be doing all you know to do with good intentions only to find out later that even your best wasn't good enough. However it wasn't good enough so to speak because it wasn't the truth of who you are.
You can be living life the best you know know how but if you are always carrying around your hurt, nurturing it, pacifying it, and holding onto it like it's a baby wrapped in a blanket, you are most likely living from that pain and seeing everything through the lenses of your trauma.
You are presenting a wounded and damaged person over and over again. You are feeling misunderstood but could it possibly be that you have been misrepresenting yourself for a very long time. Maybe they don't get you, or me, because we simply have shown them who we are in our pain, anxiety, stress, anger, fear, hurt, betrayal, mistrust, or any of the negative behaviors, thoughts, or feelings we took on as a result of life's difficult circumstances. They misunderstand you because they haven't seen the real you beyond your pain.
But we can start over.

Let me say that no one may understand us all of the time but if we carry around the label misunderstood then it could be due to the fact that we constantly project behaviors without clear understanding of what we are doing, or why. Search yourself as I am doing to see where your thinking is in error and work to heal. I know it doesn't feel good being the only one in your head understanding and people outside of your head don't have a clue.....
Could there possibly be an end to feeling the loneliness associated with being misunderstood? A cure, if you will.... An elixir?
I think possibly it could be and that would be learning to understand yourself and then you may understand how the world views you.
I certainly feel misunderstood, judged wrongly but I know with my determined self that I'll heal, I'll be accepted by those who deserve my love and who will not abuse it.
Message of hope: be patient with yourself. You can start over. You don't have to forget but reliving your pain everyday is not an option either. Work each day to see through new eyes.
There is hope and you aren't beyond repair!